Wow, it's been awhile since I've blogged something? Yeah, I've been so busy with school and stuff, especially with this thing called PBS. ㅠㅠ
anyway, yay it's school holidays! but sighs seems like this school holidays will be even boring than last year, and guess what I was doing lately. It's either I go sleep and then woke up and eat and watch tv, twitter and yeah I'll be doing that again and again, everyday. It's been a pretty boring holidays so far, because...... I didn't get the chance to go to school for the last day of school, and the holidays spirit aren't even here. I wasn't able to attend school for the last few days before holidays start because of some reason?
Yeah the reason is.... I had a surgery about 2 weeks ago, I hate hospital sfm :( especially the smell of the hospital, the needles and the stuffs ugh I can't stand the smell tbh. Sucks....because I had to spend my day on the hospital bed for 3 days 2 night. Not getting to drink or eat for 2 days were really worst, I was so hungry and thirsty but I forgot about food once the pain came. You know what, I've never though this day would come. That was the most unexpected thing, I had never thought that I'm getting surgery in my life, but I guess plot twist? haha yeah sucks man to be having this rare illness. I've suffered enough during those days, bearing the pain that no one can felt. I hate the fact that I didn't get enough sleep because of the pain. The pain came like so sudden and then gone and it came back. Sucks!!! I've endured this pain so easily, at least. Now, I don't have to endure the stomach pain that I had days ago.
You know what I fear the most right now; getting back the pain and surgery. It's still haunting me no matter how hard I try to stop thinking about it. Not be able to sleep at nights just because of this real nightmare I had. Anyway I've overcome all this. I've gone through my fear. I'm thankful enough to my family and my friends that was always beside me all the time when I was enduring the pain at the moment, even tho my friends weren't there face to face, I can feel that they were with me all the time at the moment ((because they were there to company me with their encouraging texts, telling me that this is the best for me, how they said that they missed me a lot...but man, I missed them the most. that made me cried everytime I dozzed off on that hospital bed, I can't help but teared up because I was in pain, missing my friends are really rare)) but big thanks to my dad who was always there beside me, watching me groaning in pain, crying in pain, messy hair and watching my pale face everytime the doctors mentioned about the surgery thing. And thanks to Allah, alhamdulillah I've overcome this easily.
I guess that's all....I can't continue this. Enough is enough haha. I'm not trying to be sweet up there, but yeah that was the real thing I felt. Don't judge. Try to be in my place, it hurts.
Okay, bye bye peeps.
